“I don’t trust myself,” the woman wearing the “I love my grandbabies” t-shirt at the end of the table spoke up, “I’m constantly at war with myself.
Always wondering…Always double guessing…Always contemplating…Did I make the right call? Will there be consequences? Did I make a mistake?” She takes a sharp breath, exhales, and reiterates her initial point, “I don’t trust myself, so how can I expect other people…the people I love to trust me?”
The room was silent for what seemed like an eternity and I knew that like me, everyone one else was replaying, reflecting, and digesting her words. If you’ve ever made mistakes in your life, these words would hit where it hurts the most and bring to mind painful memories.
I feel it’s incredibly sad to look at your reflection in the mirror and not trust the judgement of the person staring back.
Someone I once trusted hurt me badly, and in trying to understand the events the transpired, I documented my thoughts. I wrote a line that pretty much stuck with me, “I chose you. What does that say about me?”
It took me a long time to stop questioning myself, and when I finally did, I regained control. I realised that the first step to trusting myself was letting go of the past. It doesn’t matter how you got to this point or whose fault it is. This is not the place to be.
Heal your spirit and mind by looking forward and not into the past.
Your intuition is not only there to steer you in the right direction when you lose sight of the white markings on the road. It’s also there to encourage you when you’re on the right path.
We all have that quiet voice — if you can’t hear it’s probably because it’s buried under doubt. The only way to hear its voice is to trust your heart.
Your intuition will never fail you. You only need to listen. Sometimes it will tell you to jump without looking, and at other times, it will ask you to test the temperature first. Go with it. You’ll discover the reason soon enough.
We all want that one person who will always be there for us through thick and thin. Someone who will defend us from the world, fight for us, and be the rock we so desperately need. Well, I’ve got good news, you can be that rock for yourself.
Maya Angelou said, “I got my own back.” Meaning, she’s there for herself. Ready to provide encouragement or tough love if need be. She’s not looking for someone to lead her and protect her. She’s the knight, the queen, the bodyguard, and everything in between.
To learn how to trust yourself, you need to understand that you’re all you’ve got. Learn to be a loyal friend to your own self.